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Even that forgotten act of kindness helped to build someone's faith in life.

Heaven and Hell

To appreciate what you have is to be able to value it without clinging to it or pushing it away, and to make good use of it while you can. More fundamentally, it is to understand that there is nothing that you have to be, nothing that can't happen to you, and nothing that you can't lose. It is to let go, to accept, and to be thankful. It is to look upon the truth unwavering, and to act in full awareness of risk and reward. To have and value without appreciating is to warp and waste, to live a smaller, darker life, to only wonder what this light would have revealed, had it not been extinguished forever.

Making it yours

You can't take credit for it. You can only hope to live up to it.

My dark pit of darkness

For someone who's supposed to be a writer...

Things are worse than I want to say. I'm out of control and I seem determined to ruin every precious opportunity that comes my way. I keep telling myself what I need to do and not doing it. I don't want to tell anyone about it because I don't want to be seen like this, and because it's just so boring.

I want there to be someone outside of my family who I can rely on to help me stay focused and keep moving forward, but that's a fantasy. I want to cease this idiotic cycle of procrastination and avoidance before it really blows up in my face, but none of the signs I'm seeing point in that direction. I don't want to waste this life. So much good has gone into it, and so much can be done with it.

There's nothing left to say. I will or I won't.